Suddenly

yap yap yap, it was before valentines day and gave him good bye chocolate. sad sad sad sad sad ..... after good bye hug, !? somehow we ended up nicely. and he was sweet for the first time. i could not walk , i did not know how to go and where to go back. pain pain pain in my heart. why!?  i wished to break up with him so badly who treat me sucks and played my mind. why ? he became victim in the end and why i was bad ?! why do i feel sorry for him? yes.. i have been bad to cheat on bf. this time i didnt suppose to cheat on him. it didnt count on by just doing video chat!? no way  but for him, yes.

i tried to play easy as a mentally but it damaged so badly. regretted what i did. why I didnt play and act perfectly then i could leave him. honestly, i relied on him so much, thats why it was really painful to lose him. i just wanted to be happy......

i still liked him so much. changed my world again. it was hopeless.